Open house,

Firstly, i warn that my words might be abit harsh and i will just randomly rant.

Open house today, is like totally disaster. (in a HONEST opinion!)

is like, when shihui was conducting, everybody didn't see the baton (it's all mess-ed up!) , but when Mr tan conduct, is like still okay but STILL, we are rushing! 

I was like, every minute trying to watch mr tan/shihui 's baton and following the beat but i feel so frustrated when someone (section) rush, and is like ALOT of times! 

then in the end, i rushed too cos' i got confused with them.

I'm not trying to say insults to anyone or what, but another thing that pissed me off.

Is like telling someone damn LOTS of TIMES, but if that person don't listen to me, and just repeated his habits (it's not the FIRST TIME!), wouldn't you feel frustrated and angry too? 

I know this is a whole section thing, but sometimes, i just think that it's like my fault that i didn't teach him properly. 

Just lost control of my own emotion and i feel so moody after the performance, and suddenly just break out like this.
and after lost control of emotion, i feel so dumb for the sake of YOU who thinks you're alone, hey this is a SECTION!

i know you feel tired too, but can't you see i'm tired too? i tried hard to concentrate while practicing/performing but you always lost concentration and not late come in, like when mr tan call us to play, you didn't get ready and just like suibian play!

and i think what samuel said in facebook is completely right.

Quit pushing responsibilities and not having your own self respect for others. This is a group, listen to instructions and do it properly. They are also human beings. They also can get stressed and worried. So? You have to act the correct way, not we say then u do it. It's not only for fun fun fun fun fun fun fun. You choose this and slack? Get out of here. 

But i need to thanks people who talk to me and cheer me up. :)
[chiaowen *she keep on saying random jokes that make me laugh, it's true that 'be friends with her for one month, you can laugh for whole year!'*  minhui, sweeling, keller *give me sticky eat :D*, szefann, krisha, vivian *with her power massage and weird weird things she know* , Lois, angelin, xinying & other clarinet section juniors~ and maybe more, but thanks :) ]
and sorry for who i disappointed, sigh, this saturday is like disaster for me. -.-

Firstly, my B key can't play with my normal fingering (have to use alt. fingering which make alrdy super pissed off -.-) but anyway, i fixed it and i shall try it tml to see can work anot! (and my mood from morning is like, gradually dropped down)

Sigh, no point saying about this, just work hard for the future performance and never ever do this mistakes again! must not disappointed our SL, section and BAND!

I need to practice alot for sevens! and my off-beat and on-beat is like so bad!
tonguing still not clear, i need to buck up!

Shall end here, sigh.

P.S not insulting and saying harsh words (i don't think this is harsh, i can be more harsh compared to this, i'm trying to sound polite here by not saying any cruel languages.)  to anyone (if this sounds insulting?) but just some rants.
you can ignore this, just rant on what i truly feel.

Sua, just forget about this incident, but i can't when it's still pissing off me.