Believe i can do it, means i can do it!

Yes, success need to have DREAMS, followed by BELIEFS, then STRATEGIES and SKILLS (? forget the last step actually, not sure is this anot) to become successful - from the Peak performance workshop.
Thought that today's workshop will be boring, but it turns out to be quite motivative though some parts i was going to sleep soon.

It trigger my thoughts about being a musician again, you have only one life now, why not go achieve your dream rather than existing in this world and not doing what your passion is?
However, if i think materialistic-ly (failed english anyway), everybody thinks that  (I'm talking about full-time  musician here) musician seriously has no future.. (seems to be as it's super hard for a chance to come, you must grab the chance before it slips away.)

So i'm right now abit confused, hesitated that should i take music as a career or my passion and hobby in the future?
But i really want is to achieve my dreams, not to be a workaholic, and chiong work like nobody's business? (I just don't like that kind of life.)
Sigh, don't even know what should i do in the future....

Anyway, this workshop had make me think of setting goals.
A real goals setting to make me do the actions and not just saying out in words.

I'm not that greedy, i only have three goals for now:
- To become a better clarinetist
- To study hard and do well in studies.
- To be more not easily distracted by personal emotions.

Last one might not be a goal or what, but i just feel that my personality is just hard to understand.
I don't even understand myself, okay what am i talking now? -.-

BUT, to achieve these goals first, i have to believe i can do it in my heart, set a target for this year and tried to balance between studies and band.
Many people think that you can only choose one out of two, it's either band (CCA) or studies, there's no balance.
but anyway, i still think i need to balance between these two.

Sounds so like-normal today, maybe cos' i'm super tired or what.
Panda eyes had formed, and btw, i decided to really practice the mozart's A-major concerto and Czardas (trying to see with the clarinet quartet scores)... don't know why suddenly i got this feeling of playing well these two pieces beside the band pieces...
So far, these two are my favourite clarinet (solo/concerto) pieces followed by Weber concerto no.1 & 2 and Variations on La ci darem la mano by F. Chopin (Transposition to Clarinet key, since it's a piano 'solo' in the first place.)

shall end here now, :)
anyway, good luck to all the seniors who are taking their O level result on monday! :D