Looking on bright side

I realised it's not only able to perform the piece that matters, but interpreting the essence of the piece and understand it would be the what a performer need to express it.
As a music lover, i would really love to hear a good band/orchestra, as long as it's related to music, to express themselves, the essential of the piece and how composers want us to hear the beauty of the sound.

I may be a young music lover, not yet a performer but as an audience, still i would love to see the efforts and sincerity inside this piece of music, as we not only interpret the music, we also listen to how musicians come together to bring the sound which beats with our heart and give a shiver down our spine, which this hidden power is from the performers themselves. The sincerity comes from practice, and practice which links down to our own mindset - everybody in the group should have the attitude to perfect the piece.  

As a performer on the stage, i would love to play it, i would not dare to say to interpret it because interpreting the piece, we would need one who is really experienced and knows the heart of the audience (whether they would love it anot) which usually in orchestras, there would be a conductor. If not, when playing concertos etc, there would depend on the soloist and how he/she had study that piece. Well, get back to topic, i would love to play it well and perfecting it, closer to how composer want us to express the story or the meaning behind these beautiful sound and notes. And to do all this, the essential one would be the determination to get it all right and have the sense, you get what i mean. :) 

Anyway, been feeling down because i couldn't really find any jobs, most of the jobs i applied are like .... didn't even replied me. Sigh, maybe i should focus on the things i have on my hands, music theories etc, learning languages etc.
And i have thought about opening a blogshop, thinking whether to sell food (cookies?) etc, but that would need some time to think about it really. Since i was thinking i'm quite free during this holiday, (only doing music stuffs etc) , i wanted to learn new things so as to make myself feel that i'm getting on to new life. It's time to change some things, isn't it? ^^

Run towards my dream and yeah, 努力啊！！！