sigh.

Feel freaking pissed off but yet i can't do anything about it. (don't worry, it's not about school thing *including band*)
Make things so difficult, okay i'm trying to co-operate here etc...
but honestly speaking, the management sucks. No offence here, okay wait there's offence but i'm sure the target is not the one reading. since i'm just a nobody
but this is how i feel about as a member.

Actually, after few years of joining, i had to start to put in faith in this to carry the reputation they once have. But sadly, glory time has passed, it started to downfall all this...
As much as i really hate this kind of thing AKA POLITICS, now this thing had started to involved in playing music.
I know music and politics are two different thing, but somehow it just get together and make things complicated.
People who are higher up, i believe want to do the best for it but some are just damn selfish and do for own profits etc. (okay, i dun have the rights to say that, but i'm really very sure, there's always a black sheep among.)

(i think by now, it's obvious what i am talking about.)
For now, i would just see and see how bah. But i really hope i can tahan enough ....
and interact with other people (for this, blame on my social awkwardness.... D: )

But yeah, see next practice bah!
Maybe it might change my thinking etc.
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so recently, this sat going to take ABRSM theory exam! first time, hope i can do well.. (hmm... distinction.. since i paid the money like freaking ex leh *AUNTIE THINKING* )
Need to buck up on my grade 5 pieces and basics, also meanwhile practice my grade 8 pieces, shostakovich symp. no.5 and jazz suite~ plus saga candida~

Today sectional, play mayday medley, quite okay but just the rhythmic part, need to practice!
tried the ensemble piece, seems nice haha :) ensemble playing is actually fun yeah, hope can yeah~ ^^

and just realised this week will be freaking busy
working and i need to find time to practice instruments!
and band, and exam, and my lesson T.T
BEFORE LESSON I NEED TO PRACTICE THOSE grade piece....
jiayou to myself, i must improve and drill my freaking dictation!
arghhh, D: written exam D+, wth! D: sigh
and my set piece....

shall end my rants here. this post seems so depressing...